IN MY PRE TEEN YEARS, I always carried this feeling or belief that I, Frankie, would “do something great with my life”. Through my teenage years, I assumed ( quite inaccurately by the way) that my greatness would come from being a professional athlete. I was fairly talented as a youngster and sports came easy to me, too easy. I took my success for granted, and always incorrectly assumed that I would be great no matter what level I played at, including professionally. To fast forward a little bit beyond my athletic years and endeavors, I realized that I didn’t have the mindset or the dedication to pursue a college or even professional athletic career in any sport (My mind was elsewhere). The highlight of my sports success came when I was 13 years old. I pitched the first game of a doubleheader that won us ’13-year-olds’ a state championship in Virginia. Success in sports for me, was rare but fun after this event.
As I graduated into the “workaday world”, I found good jobs as an electro/ mechanical inspector in the Defence Electronics field. This was my main area of employment from 1979 through the year 2000. During the early part of the nineties, I attended Liberty University “School of Lifelong Learning”. One of my favorite subjects was Hebrew Archaeology And History. (Along with other biblical related studies) I earned 69 credits during a two and one half years span of time. I received a notice that I was a bonafide graduate of Liberty University and had earned an AA in general studies, (I was a business major), But they never sent my degree to me and I didn’t pursue it, I was moving on. The following is of importance since this is a recap / introduction to my life, that is to say that I started writing about the age of 23 in approximately 1977. I was heavily influenced by the music of those days and somewhat by the partying activities that were typical of my circle of friends. I will leave it at that but will say that I enjoyed peach and apricot brandy, while venturing into some other things. Enough said on this.
In those days, I enjoyed writing lyrics and poetry, looking back I thought of myself as a mediocre writer at best. I quickly learned that a great writer had to be born a genius or had to live a life and be exceptional at retelling what he/she had lived. In those days I was neither. I became obsessed with reading and continued my writing through the years. Jumping ahead again, with the advent of social media I became involved with Facebook, Twitter, and the like. I also found my niche writing political satire. I easily found subjects and topics to write about. Donald Trump and the media made sure I had no writer’s block, ever. I had found my voice writing about politics, also about Biblical topics, studies, and poetry. ( I was engrossed in “why people believed what they believed”, and ‘how’ they had developed their belief systems.)
Of importance to mention: I grew up the oldest of four children. My mother was Audrey, my father, Coy. My family and I moved from Oak Ridge Tennessee, my birthplace, to Northern Virginia ( I was one year old. I had two brothers and a sister, Perry, Rhonda, and Brian chronologically from me. We had loving parents and great childhoods in a mid to lower-class suburb called “Pimmit Hills. We were inside the DC area “beltway” on the Virginia side, approximately 10 miles from Washington DC. I mainly grew up in Falls Church and Fairfax. Fairfax County and Loudon County turning out to be two of the richest counties in the nation. Up until the late ’90s, jobs were plentiful and people were a little saner.
Of further importance: My early writings consisted mainly of poetry before I developed the above-mentioned genres. What you will find there and in later writings is my sense of wonder, my sense of adventure, my viewing life as a journey to be experienced and experimented upon. ( After all, I and friends were a product of the seventies and eighties, and most of what living in those days entailed.
I want to acknowledge some friends of my recent and distant past. I won’t mention the roles or influence ‘yous’ had on me. However, I feel it necessary to say thank you to Rhonda N. and especially *Linda C. ( hats off to you both ) Also, Mark W. and Diana W. … A special friend also being Harrison C. (as youths, we started asking the big WHY questions) among other wonderful experiences. Also friends in St. Petersburg, Fl, Where I lived off and on for about 8 years … I would like to say Hey to two lovelies, Jennifer C. and Andrea S. G. … others including Gerald B., Dave C. & Rob ... Carolyn R. … Bobbie Sue A. … Joy. C. … Johnnie and Jeannie S. … Mike Bedell, Leslie Hale ministries, out of Tarpon Springs, Fl. …There are many others, sorry if I have forgotten you. Back in Virginia, I must say a heartfelt special Thank You to one of Va’s finest women and friend of my family, Judy Almquist. Also Judy’s sweet mother Marguerite ( can mean Pearl, of Latin and Persian origin) and Judy’s daughters, Linda, Amy, and their families. Let me not forget Judy’s son David. Dare I say that without Judy Almquist’s love and support for Mizuho ( my wife) and later Ari’el our son and me, she, Mizuho, may not have come into my life.
Airing laundry: To my daughter Lauren: So sorry for my failing you early on. There are no excuses but I would like to say … Your mother and I were “children having children.” I, nor your mom, were spiritually, physically, mentally, or financially prepared to be parents … (Thank God for Grandparents) Please don’t remind me of my failing you. Again, I would like to say, “there were certain family members on my side and yours” that were and ( some still are) “poisoning the water” concerning me and you. Seems to me, if some of these people had your best interests at heart, they would have let us pursue a relationship, (Bitterness is like cancer.) instead of making me out to be a vicious devil … Anyway, our relationship or lack thereof… is what it is … regretfully.
A pivotal point of my life: Long story short; In the spring of 1981 (28 years old), I had an encounter with God. I experienced a manifestation from Him. Looking back there was no way I could have denied what happened to me. If I had, I would have been a liar. Here is what happened: I was sitting at a table of five or six people at my first prayer meeting. I had little or no experience but all of a sudden, it felt as if oil had hit me on top of my head or as if a handkerchief had been draped over me. I later learned that this was the presence of God and also that I had been given gifts, specifically the gift of evangelism and witnessing; which proved to be true up until this very day. I want to make a general sweeping statement about my feelings on Christianity. Be careful and try not to misunderstand what I am going to say. By no means am I one of these Christians that is bound up with legalism. I am free to live under the convictions of my conscience and my God. Certainly, I am not one of these Christians that believes if you have a drink or two, you’re going to hell, or if you slip up and say a cuss word, you’re going to hell or any nonsense like that. I have learned that all things are permissible but not all things are profitable. Again, I live by the convictions of my heart and conscience.
About me and my writing: Those that decide to read my work will find a certain reality in the words. By that I mean you will find a dark side and you will find a side filled with light, hope, and promise. Let me see if I can say ‘that’ a little bit better. Readers of my work will find the obvious struggle between good and evil, between God and the devil. Further, readers will find many interesting deep studies, I have put forth along the way. As Bill Gillham (author of LIFETIME GUARANTEE) so accurately teaches “After a salvation experience, people find that they are a “new creation in an old earth suit.”Essentially meaning there is an ongoing struggle that is very real and can be very consuming. My writing is evidence of this. Readers will find examples/ accounts of spiritual attacks to me, on one side from the devil and spiritual euphoric peace with God on the other. “The old man battling with the new.” Additionally, I would like to mention, that a lot of my ideas apart from biblical studies, “come from a pre or post-conscious dreamlike state.” Oftentimes, I wake up with what I call words and ideas structuring themselves in my mind, almost clamoring for my attention. Oftentimes again, these words and suggestions/ ideas will not leave me alone (let me rest) until I get up and write them down.
Finally, I have written 1200 plus pieces of work. I plan on releasing Volume 1 soon, probably via e-book and paperback. I am planning on 5 to 6 volumes, a total of about 200 pages each. We will see how it works out. Give my Volume 1 a close read, (when it becomes available) you might find it very interesting and you might find parts of yourself in there, Frank Payton. Contact me at email@example.com … for more info or to share your thoughts.
Heavy influences in my life: 19th century scholar, E.W. Bullinger, author of THE COMPANION BIBLE, which in my opinion, as a study guide, has no equal ... The most excellent, Jonathan Cahn … his books including the Harbinger 1 and 2 … Paradigm …The Oracle, and many others, in my opinion, his work is complete revelation and is life-changing. Also, Bill Gillham … I have to mention the great Edgar Allan Poe, Miguel de Cervantes, Samuel Clemens (Mark Twain) Shakespeare, ( Hamlet, my favorite ) … Mr. Odawa, ” Giants and the Nephilim” … many, many others through the years … Musically I was/ am heavily influenced by the melancholy flamboyance of Jim Morrison and the doors … The mysticism of Led Zeppelin … The genius of Jimi Hendrix … The horrors of war through Pink Floyd … other influences, Yes, Van Morrison, The lyrics of Jethro tall … Many others …
In closing, I want to say to my wife of nearly 14 years, Mizuho Shigyo Payton, originally from Yokohama Japan … I cannot express in words the love I have for you and our now 13-year-old son, Ari’el Shou Payton. Also thank you to Etsuko ( Mizuho’s mother) and Hiroaki and his family, also in Yokohama, Japan.
Note: My writing style is a little bit unconventional and I am not so concerned with perfect grammar and formality. I use the ellipsis (…) quite regularly and my intention is for there to be a pause in my sentences or word structure … I’M of a mind that the message and contemplation are far more important than having all of my commas in the right place … enjoy my work … Frank Payton.